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〃I never asked what the dance was;〃 he returned。 〃I merely took the opportunity of revising my toilet; and getting rid of that rather distinctive overcoat; which I shall call for now。 They're not too particular at such stages of such proceedings; but I've no doubt I should have seen someone I knew if I had none right in。 I might even have had a turn; if only I had been less uneasy about you; Bunny。〃
〃It was like you to come back to help me out;〃 said I。 〃But to lie to me; and to inveigle me with your lies into that house of all houses … that was not like you; Raffles … and I never shall forgive it or you!〃
Raffles took my arm again。 We were near the High Street gates of Palace Gardens; and I was too miserable to resist an advance which I meant never to give him an opportunity to repeat。
〃Come; come; Bunny; there wasn't much inveigling about it;〃 said he。 〃I did my level best to leave you behind; but you wouldn't listen to me。〃
〃If you had told me the truth I should have listened fast enough;〃 I retorted。 〃But what's the use of talking? You can boast of your own adventures after you bolted。 You don't care what happened to me。〃
〃I cared so much that I came back to see。〃
〃You might have spared yourself the trouble! The wrong had been done。 Raffles … Raffles … don't you know who she was?〃
It was my hand that gripped his arm once more。
〃I guessed;〃 he answered; gravely enough even for me。
〃It was she who saved me; not you;〃 I said。 〃And that is the bitterest part of all!〃
Yet I told him that part with a strange sad pride in her whom I had lost … through him … forever。 As I ended we turned into High Street; in the prevailing stillness; the faint strains of the band reached us from the Empress Rooms; and I hailed a crawling hansom as Raffles turned that way。
〃Bunny;〃 said he; 〃it's no use saying I'm sorry。 Sorrow adds insult in a case like this … if ever there was or will be such another! Only believe me; Bunny; when I swear to you that I had not the smallest shadow of a suspicion that she was in the house。〃
And in my heart of hearts I did believe him; but I could not bring myself to say the words。
〃You told me yourself that you had written to her in the country;〃 he pursued。
〃And that letter!〃 I rejoined; in a fresh wave of bitterness: 〃that letter she had written at dead of night; and stolen down to post; it was the one I have been waiting for all these days! I should have got it to…morrow。 Now I shall never get it; never hear from her again; nor have another chance in this world or in the next。 I don't say it was all your fault。 You no more knew that she was there than I did。 But you told me a deliberate lie about her people; and that I never shall forgive。〃
I spoke as vehemently as I could under my breath。 The hansom was waiting at the curb。
〃I can say no more than I have said;〃 returned Raffles with a shrug。 〃Lie or no lie; I didn't tell it to bring you with me; but to get you to give me certain information without feeling a beast about it。 But; as a matter of fact; it was no lie about old Hector Carruthers and Lord Lochmaben; and anybody but you would have guessed the truth。〃
〃'What is the truth?〃
〃I as good as told you; Bunny; again and again。〃
〃Then tell me now。〃
〃If you read your paper there would be no need; but if you want to know; old Carruthers headed the list of the Birthday Honors; and Lord Lochmaben is the title of his choice。〃
And this miserable quibble was not a lie! My lip curled; I turned my back without a word; and drove home to my Mount Street flat in a new fury of savage scorn。 Not a lie; indeed! It was the one that is half a truth; the meanest lie of all; and the very last to which I could have dreamt that Raffles would stoop。 So far there had been a degree of honor between us; if only of the kind understood to obtain between thief and thief。 Now all that was at an end。 Raffles had cheated me。 Raffles had completed the ruin of my life。 I was done with Raffles; as she who shall not be named was done with me。
And yet; even while I blamed him most bitterly; and utterly abominated his deceitful deed; I could not but admit in my heart that the result was put of all proportion to the intent: he had never dreamt of doing me this injury; or indeed any injury at all。 Intrinsically the deceit had been quite venial; the reason for it obviously the reason that Raffles had given me。 It was quite true that he had spoken of this Lochmaben peerage as a new creation; and of the heir to it in a fashion only applicable to Alick Carruthers。 He had given me hints; which I had been too dense to take; and he had certainly made more than one attempt to deter me from accompanying him on this fatal emprise; had he been more explicit; I might have made it my business to deter him。 I could not say in my heart that Raffles had failed to satisfy such honor as I might reasonably expect to subsist between us。 Yet it seems to me to require a superhuman sanity always and unerringly to separate cause from effect; achievement from intent。 And I; for one; was never quite able to do so in this case。
I could not be accused of neglecting my newspaper during the next few wretched days。 I read every word that I could find about the attempted jewel…robbery in Palace Gardens; and the reports afforded me my sole comfort。 In the first place; it was only an attempted robbery; nothing had been taken; after all。 And then … and then … the one member of the household who had come nearest to a personal encounter with either of us was unable to furnish any description of the man … had even expressed a doubt as to the likelihood of identification in the event of an arrest!
I will not say with what mingled feelings I read and dwelt on that announcement It kept a certain faint glow alive within me until the morning brought me back the only presents I had ever made her。 They were books; jewellery had been tabooed by the authorities。 And the books came back without a word; though the parcel was directed in her hand。
I had made up my mind not to go near Raffles again; but in my heart I already regretted my resolve。 I had forfeited love; I had sacrificed honor; and now I must deliberately alienate myself from the one being whose society might yet be some recompense for all that I had lost。 The situation was aggravated by the state of my exchequer。 I expected an ultimatum from my banker by every post。 Yet this influence was nothing to the other。 It was Raffles I loved。 It was not the dark life we led together; still less its base rewards; it was the man himself; his gayety; his humor; his dazzling audacity; his incomparable courage and resource。 And a very horror of turning to him again in mere need of greed set the seal on my first angry resolution。 But the anger was soon gone out of me; and when at length Raffles bridged the gap by coming to me; I rose to greet him almost with a shout。
He came as though nothing had happened; and; indeed; not very many days had passed; though they might have been months to me。 Yet I fancied the gaze that watched me through our smoke a trifle less sunny than it had been before。 And it was a relief to me when he came w