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liberty in all reapects。 Such as know me； both above and below me in
station； are able to say whether they have ever known a man less
importuning； soliciting； entreating； and pressing upon others than I。
If I am so； and a degree beyond all modern example； 'tis no great wonder；
so many parts of my manners contributing to it： a little natural pride；
an impatience at being refused； the moderation of my desires and designs；
my incapacity for business； and my most beloved qualities； idleness and
freedom； by all these together I have conceived a mortal hatred to being
obliged to any other； or by any other than myself。 I leave no stone
unturned； to do without it； rather than employ the bounty of another in
any light or important occasion or necessity whatever。 My friends
strangely trouble me when they ask me to ask a third person； and I think
it costs me little less to disengage him who is indebted to me； by making
use of him； than to engage myself to him who owes me nothing。 These
conditions being removed； and provided they require of me nothing if any
great trouble or care （for I have declared mortal war against all care）；
I am very ready to do every one the best service I can。 I have been very
willing to seek occasion to do people a good turn； and to attach them to
me； and methinks there is no more agreeable employment for our means。
But I have yet more avoided receiving than sought occasions of giving；
and moreover； according to Aristotle； it is more easy。； My fortune has
allowed me but little to do others good withal； and the little it can
afford； is put into a pretty close hand。 Had I been born a great person；
I should have been ambitious to have made myself beloved； not to make
myself feared or admired： shall I more plainly express it？ I should more
have endeavoured to please than to profit others。 Cyrus very wisely； and
by the mouth of a great captain； and still greater philosopher； prefers
his bounty and benefits much before his valour and warlike conquests；
and the elder Scipio； wherever he would raise himself in esteem； sets a
higher value upon his affability and humanity； than on his prowess and
victories； and has always this glorious saying in his mouth： 〃That he has
given his enemies as much occasion to love him as his friends。〃 I will
then say； that if a man must； of necessity； owe something； it ought to be
by a more legitimate title than that whereof I am speaking； to which the
necessity of this miserable war compels me； and not in so great a debt as
that of my total preservation both of life and fortune： it overwhelms me。
I have a thousand times gone to bed in my own house with an apprehension
that I should be betrayed and murdered that very night； compounding with
fortune； that it might be without terror and with quick despatch； and；
after my Paternoster； I have cried out；
〃Impius haec tam culta novalia miles habebit！〃
＇〃Shall impious soldiers have these new…ploughed grounds？〃
Virgil； Ecl。； i。 71。＇
What remedy？ 'tis the place of my birth； and that of most of my
ancestors； they have here fixed their affection and name。 We inure
ourselves to whatever we are accustomed to； and in so miserable a
condition as ours is； custom is a great bounty of nature； which benumbs
out senses to the sufferance of many evils。 A civil war has this with it
worse than other wars have； to make us stand sentinels in our own houses。
〃Quam miserum； porta vitam muroque tueri；
Vixque suae tutum viribus esse domus！〃
＇〃'Tis miserable to protect one's life by doors and walls； and to be
scarcely safe in one's own house。〃Ovid； Trist。； iv。 I； 69。＇
'Tis a grievous extremity for a man to be jostled even in his own house
and domestic repose。 The country where I live is always the first in
arms and the last that lays them down； and where there is never an
absolute peace：
〃Tunc quoque； cum pax est； trepidant formidine belli。。。。
Quoties Romam fortuna lacessit；
Hac iter est bellis。。。。 Melius； Fortuna； dedisses
Orbe sub Eoo sedem； gelidaque sub Arcto；
Errantesque domos。〃
＇〃Even when there's peace； there is here still the dear of war when
Fortune troubles peace； this is ever the way by which war passes。〃
Ovid； Trist。； iii。 10； 67。＇
＇〃We might have lived happier in the remote East or in the icy
North； or among the wandering tribes。〃Lucan； i。 255。＇
I sometimes extract the means to fortify myself against these
considerations from indifference and indolence； which； in some sort；
bring us on to resolution。 It often befalls me to imagine and expect
mortal dangers with a kind of delight： I stupidly plunge myself headlong
into death； without considering or taking a view of it； as into a deep
and obscure abyss which swallows me up at one leap； and involves me in an
instant in a profound sleep； without any sense of pain。 And in these
short and violent deaths； the consequence that I foresee administers more
consolation to me than the effect does fear。 They say； that as life is
not better for being long； so death is better for being not long。 I do
not so much evade being dead； as I enter into confidence with dying。 I
wrap and shroud myself into the storm that is to blind and carry me away
with the fury of a sudden and insensible attack。 Moreover； if it should
fall out that； as some gardeners say； roses and violets spring more
odoriferous near garlic and onions； by reason that the last suck and
imbibe all the ill odour of the earth； so； if these depraved natures
should also attract all the malignity of my air and climate； and render
it so much better and purer by their vicinity； I should not lose all。
That cannot be： but there may be something in this； that goodness is more
beautiful and attractive when it is rare； and that contrariety and
diversity fortify and consolidate well…doing within itself； and inflame
it by the jealousy of opposition and by glory。 Thieves and robbers； of
their special favour； have no particular spite at me； no more have I to
them： I should have my hands too full。 Like consciences are lodged under
several sorts of robes； like cruelty； disloyalty； rapine； and so much the
worse； and more falsely； when the more secure and concealed under colour
of the laws。 I less hate an open professed injury than one that is
treacherous； an enemy in arms； than an enemy in a gown。 Our fever has
seized upon a body that is not much the worse for it； there was fire
before； and now 'tis broken out into a flame； the noise is greater； not
the evil。 I ordinarily answer such as ask me the reason of my travels；
〃That I know very well what I fly from； but not what I seek。〃 If they
tell me that there may be as little soundness amongst foreigners； and
that their manners are no better than ours： I first reply； that it is
hard to be believed；
〃Tam multa： scelerum facies！〃
＇〃There are so many forms of crime。〃Virgil； Georg。； i。 506。＇
secondly； that it is always gain to change an ill condition for one that
is uncertain； and that the ills of others ought not to afflict us so mu