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It was by no means his nature to be timid： But his education had
impressed his mind with fear so strongly； that apprehension was
now become part of his character。 Had his Youth been passed in
the world； He would have shown himself possessed of many
brilliant and manly qualities。 He was naturally enterprizing；
firm； and fearless： He had a Warrior's heart； and He might have
shone with splendour at the head of an Army。 There was no want
of generosity in his nature： The Wretched never failed to find
in him a compassionate Auditor： His abilities were quick and
shining； and his judgment； vast； solid； and decisive。 With such
qualifications He would have been an ornament to his Country：
That He possessed them； He had given proofs in his earliest
infancy； and his Parents had beheld his dawning virtues with the
fondest delight and admiration。 Unfortunately； while yet a Child
He was deprived of those Parents。 He fell into the power of a
Relation whose only wish about him was never to hear of him
more； For that purpose He gave him in charge to his Friend； the
former Superior of the Capuchins。 The Abbot； a very Monk； used
all his endeavours to persuade the Boy that happiness existed
not without the walls of a Convent。 He succeeded fully。 To
deserve admittance into the order of St。 Francis was Ambrosio's
highest ambition。 His Instructors carefully repressed those
virtues whose grandeur and disinterestedness were ill…suited to
the Cloister。 Instead of universal benevolence； He adopted a
selfish partiality for his own particular establishment： He was
taught to consider compassion for the errors of Others as a crime
of the blackest dye： The noble frankness of his temper was
exchanged for servile humility； and in order to break his natural
spirit； the Monks terrified his young mind by placing before him
all the horrors with which Superstition could furnish them： They
painted to him the torments of the Damned in colours the most
dark； terrible； and fantastic； and threatened him at the
slightest fault with eternal perdition。 No wonder that his
imagination constantly dwelling upon these fearful objects should
have rendered his character timid and apprehensive。 Add to this；
that his long absence from the great world； and total
unacquaintance with the common dangers of life； made him form of
them an idea far more dismal than the reality。 While the Monks
were busied in rooting out his virtues and narrowing his
sentiments； they allowed every vice which had fallen to his
share to arrive at full perfection。 He was suffered to be
proud； vain； ambitious； and disdainful： He was jealous of his
Equals； and despised all merit but his own： He was implacable
when offended； and cruel in his revenge。 Still in spite of the
pains taken to pervert them； his natural good qualities would
occasionally break through the gloom cast over them so carefully：
At such times the contest for superiority between his real and
acquired character was striking and unaccountable to those
unacquainted with his original disposition。 He pronounced the
most severe sentences upon Offenders； which； the moment after；
Compassion induced him to mitigate： He undertook the most daring
enterprizes； which the fear of their consequences soon obliged
him to abandon： His inborn genius darted a brilliant light upon
subjects the most obscure； and almost instantaneously his
Superstition replunged them in darkness more profound than that
from which they had just been rescued。 His Brother Monks；
regarding him as a Superior Being； remarked not this
contradiction in their Idol's conduct。 They were persuaded that
what He did must be right； and supposed him to have good reasons
for changing his resolutions。 The fact was； that the different
sentiments with which Education and Nature had inspired him
were combating in his bosom： It remained for his passions； which
as yet no opportunity had called into play； to decide the
victory。 Unfortunately his passions were the very worst Judges；
to whom He could possibly have applied。 His monastic seclusion
had till now been in his favour； since it gave him no room for
discovering his bad qualities。 The superiority of his talents
raised him too far above his Companions to permit his being
jealous of them： His exemplary piety； persuasive eloquence； and
pleasing manners had secured him universal Esteem； and
consequently He had no injuries to revenge： His Ambition was
justified by his acknowledged merit； and his pride considered as
no more than proper confidence。 He never saw； much less
conversed with； the other sex： He was ignorant of the pleasures
in Woman's power to bestow； and if He read in the course of his
studies
'That Men were fond； He smiled； and wondered how！'
For a time； spare diet； frequent watching； and severe penance
cooled and represt the natural warmth of his constitution： But
no sooner did opportunity present itself； no sooner did He catch
a glimpse of joys to which He was still a Stranger； than
Religion's barriers were too feeble to resist the overwhelming
torrent of his desires。 All impediments yielded before the force
of his temperament； warm； sanguine； and voluptuous in the excess。
As yet his other passions lay dormant； But they only needed to be
once awakened； to display themselves with violence as great and
irresistible。
He continued to be the admiration of Madrid。 The Enthusiasm
created by his eloquence seemed rather to increase than diminish。
Every Thursday； which was the only day when He appeared in
public； the Capuchin Cathedral was crowded with Auditors； and
his discourse was always received with the same approbation。 He
was named Confessor to all the chief families in Madrid； and no
one was counted fashionable who was injoined penance by any
other than Ambrosio。 In his resolution of never stirring out of
his Convent； He still persisted。 This circumstance created a
still greater opinion of his sanctity and self…denial。 Above
all； the Women sang forth his praises loudly； less influenced by
devotion than by his noble countenance； majestic air； and
well…turned； graceful figure。 The Abbey door was thronged with
Carriages from morning to night； and the noblest and fairest
Dames of Madrid confessed to the Abbot their secret peccadilloes。
The eyes of the luxurious Friar devoured their charms： Had his
Penitents consulted those Interpreters； He would have needed no
other means of expressing his desires。 For his misfortune； they
were so strongly persuaded of his continence； that the
possibility of his harbouring indecent thoughts never once
entered their imaginations。 The climate's heat； 'tis well known；
operates with no small influence upon the constitutions of the
Spanish Ladies： But the most abandoned would have thought it an
easier task to inspire with passion the marble Statue of St。
Francis than the cold and rigid heart of the immaculate Ambrosio。
On his part； the Friar was little acquainted with the depravity
of the world； He suspected not that but few of his Penitents
would have rejected his addresses。 Yet had He been better
instructed on this head； the danger attending