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lled with meaning and became almost beautiful； with nose a little to one side； and bearded lips just openAshurst； forty…eight； and silent； grasped the luncheon basket； and got out too。
〃Oh！ Look； Frank！ A grave！〃
By the side of the road； where the track from the top of the common crossed it at right angles and ran through a gate past the narrow wood； was a thin mound of turf； six feet by one； with a moorstone to the west； and on it someone had thrown a blackthorn spray and a handful of bluebells。 Ashurst looked； and the poet in him moved。 At cross…roadsa suicide's grave！ Poor mortals with their superstitions！ Whoever lay there； though； had the best of it； no clammy sepulchre among other hideous graves carved with futilities just a rough stone； the wide sky； and wayside blessings！ And； without comment； for he had learned not to be a philosopher in the bosom of his family； he strode away up on to the common； dropped the luncheon basket under a wall； spread a rug for his wife to sit on she would turn up from her sketching when she was hungryand took from his pocket Murray's translation of the 〃Hippolytus。〃 He had soon finished reading of 〃The Cyprian〃 and her revenge； and looked at the sky instead。 And watching the white clouds so bright against the intense blue； Ashurst； on his silver…wedding day； longed forhe knew not what。 Maladjusted to lifeman's organism！ One's mode of life might be high and scrupulous； but there was always an； undercurrent of greediness； a hankering； and sense of waste。 Did women have it too？ Who could tell？ And yet； men who gave vent to their appetites for novelty； their riotous longings for new adventures； new risks； new pleasures； these suffered； no doubt； from the reverse side of starvation； from surfeit。 No getting out of ita maladjusted animal； civilised man！ There could be no garden of his choosing； of 〃the Apple…tree； the singing； and the gold；〃 in the words of that lovely Greek chorus； no achievable elysium in life； or lasting haven of happiness for any man with a sense of beautynothing which could compare with the captured loveliness in a work of art； set down for ever； so that to look on it or read was always to have the same precious sense of exaltation and restful inebriety。 Life no doubt had moments with that quality of beauty； of unbidden flying rapture； but the trouble was； they lasted no longer than the span of a cloud's flight over the sun； impossible to keep them with you； as Art caught beauty and held it fast。 They were fleeting as one of the glimmering or golden visions one had of the soul in nature； glimpses of its remote and brooding spirit。 Here； with the sun hot on his face； a cuckoo calling from a thorn tree； and in the air the honey savour of gorsehere among the little fronds of the young fern； the starry blackthorn； while the bright clouds drifted by high above the hills and dreamy valleys here and now was such a glimpse。 But in a moment it would passas the face of Pan； which looks round the corner of a rock； vanishes at your stare。 And suddenly he sat up。 Surely there was something familiar about this view； this bit of common； that ribbon of road； the old wall behind him。 While they were driving he had not been taking noticenever did； thinking of far things or of nothingbut now he saw！ Twenty…six years ago； just at this time of year； from the farmhouse within half a mile of this very spot he had started for that day in Torquay whence it might be said he had never returned。 And a sudden ache beset his heart； he had stumbled on just one of those past moments in his life； whose beauty and rapture he had failed to arrest； whose wings had fluttered away into the unknown； he had stumbled on a buried memory； a wild sweet time； swiftly choked and ended。 And； turning on his face； he rested his chin on his hands； and stared at the short grass where the little blue milkwort was growing。。。。
I
And this is what he remembered。
On the first of May； after their last year together at college； Frank Ashurst and his friend Robert Garton were on a tramp。 They had walked that day from Brent； intending to make Chagford； but Ashurst's football knee had given out； and according to their map they had still some seven miles to go。 They were sitting on a bank beside the…road； where a track crossed alongside a wood； resting the knee and talking of the universe； as young men will。 Both were over six feet； and thin as rails； Ashurst pale； idealistic； full of absence； Garton queer； round…the…corner； knotted； curly； like some primeval beast。 Both had a literary bent； neither wore a hat。
Ashurst's hair was smooth； pale； wavy； and had a way of rising on either side of his brow； as if always being flung back； Carton's was a kind of dark unfathomed mop。 They had not met a soul for miles。
〃My dear fellow；〃 Garton was saying； 〃pity's only an effect of self… consciousness； it's a disease of the last five thousand years。 The world was happier without。〃
Ashurst； following the clouds with his eyes； answered：
〃It's the pearl in the oyster； anyway。〃
〃My dear chap； all our modern unhappiness comes from pity。 Look at animals； and Red Indians； limited to feeling their own occasional misfortunes； then look at ourselvesnever free from feeling the toothaches of others。 Let's get back to feeling for nobody； and have a better time。〃
〃You'll never practise that。〃
Garton pensively stirred the hotch…potch of his hair。
〃To attain full growth； one mustn't be squeamish。 To starve oneself emotionally's a mistake。 All emotion is to the goodenriches life。〃
〃Yes； and when it runs up against chivalry？〃
〃Ah！ That's so English！ If you speak of emotion the English always think you want something physical； and are shocked。 They're afraid of passion； but not of lustoh； no！so long as they can keep it secret。〃
Ashurst did not answer； he had plucked a blue floweret； and was twiddling it against the sky。 A cuckoo began calling from a thorn tree。 The sky； the flowers； the songs of birds！ Robert was talking through his hat！ And he said：
〃Well； let's go on； and find some farm where we can put up。〃 In uttering those words； he was conscious of a girl coming down from the common just above them。 She was outlined against the sky； carrying a basket； and you could see that sky through the crook of her arm。 And Ashurst； who saw beauty without wondering how it could advantage him； thought： 'How pretty！' The wind； blowing her dark frieze skirt against her legs； lifted her battered peacock tam…o'…shanter； her greyish blouse was worn and old； her shoes were split； her little hands rough and red； her neck browned。 Her dark hair waved untidy across her broad forehead； her face was short； her upper lip short； showing a glint of teeth； her brows were straight and dark； her lashes long and dark； her nose straight； but her grey eyes were the wonder…dewy as if opened for the first time that day。 She looked at Ashurstperhaps he struck her as strange； limping along without a hat； with his large eyes on her； and his hair falling back。 He could not take off what was not on his head； but put up his hand in a salute； and said：
〃Can you tell us if there's a farm near here wh