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answer； and they walked on without speaking； till she asked； 〃Did you
know that Miss Milray was at the Middlemount？〃
〃Miss Milray！ Of Florence？〃
〃With her brother。 I didn't see him； Mrs。 Milray is not he'a； they ah'
divo'ced。 Miss Milray used to be very nice to me in Florence。 She isn't
going back there any moa。 She says you can't go back to anything。
Do you think we can？〃
She had left moments between her incoherent sentences where he might
interrupt her if he would； but he waited for her question。 〃I hoped we
might； but perhaps〃
〃No； no。 We couldn't。 We couldn't go back to that night when you threw
the slippas into the riva； no' to that time in Florence when we gave up；
no' to that day in Venice when I had to tell you that I ca'ed moa fo'
some one else。 Don't you see？〃
〃Yes； I see；〃 he said； in quick revulsion from the hope he had expressed。
〃The past is full of the pain and shame of my errors！〃
〃I don't want to go back to what's past； eitha；〃 she reasoned； without
gainsaying him。
She stopped again； as if that were all； and he asked； 〃Then is that my
answer？〃
〃I don't believe that even in the otha wo'ld we shall want to go back to
the past； much； do you？〃 she pursued； thoughtfully。
Once Gregory would have answered confidently； he even now checked an
impulse to do so。 〃I don't know；〃 he owned； meekly。
〃I do like you； Mr。 Gregory！〃 she relented； as if touched by his
meekness； to the confession。 〃You know I domoa than I ever expected to
like anybody again。 But it's not because I used to like you； or because
I think you always acted nicely。 I think it was cruel of you； if you
ca'ed for me； to let me believe you didn't； afta that fust time。 I can't
eva think it wasn't； no matta why you did it。〃
〃It was atrocious。 I can see that now。〃
〃I say it； because I shouldn't eva wish to say it again。 I know that all
the time you we'e betta than what you did； and I blame myself a good deal
moa fo' not knowing when you came to Florence that I had begun to ca'e
fo'some one else。 But I did wait till I could see you again； so as to be
su'a which I ca'ed for the most。 I tried to be fai'a； before I told
you that I wanted to be free。 That is all；〃 she said； gently； and
Gregory perceived that the word was left definitely to him。
He could not take it till he had disciplined himself to accept
unmurmuringly his sentence as he understood it。 〃At any rate；〃 he began；
〃I can thank you for rating my motive above my conduct。〃
〃Oh；〃 she said。 〃I don't think either of us acted very well。 I didn't
know till aftawa'ds that I was glad to have you give up； the way you did
in Florence。 I wasbewild'ed。 But I ought to have known； and I want
you to undastand everything； now。 I don't ca'e for you because I used to
when I was almost a child； and I shouldn't want you to ca'e for me eitha；
because you did then。 That's why I wish you had neva felt that you had
always ca'ed fo' me。〃
〃Yes；〃 said Gregory。 He let fall his head in despair。
〃That is what I mean；〃 said Clementina。 〃If we ah' going to begin
togetha； now； it's got to be as if we had neva begun before。 And you
mustn't think； or say； or look as if the'e had been anything in oua lives
but ouaselves。 Will you？ Do you promise？〃 She stopped； and put her
hand on his breast； and pushed against it with a nervous vehemence。
〃No！〃 he said。 〃I don't promise； for I couldn't keep my promise。 What
you ask is impossible。 The past is part of us； it can't be ignored any
more than it can be destroyed。 If we take each other； it must be for all
that we have been as well as all that we are。 If we haven't the courage
for that we must part。〃
He dropped the little one's hand which he had been holding； and moved a
few steps aside。 〃Don't！〃 she said。 〃They'll think I've made you；〃 and
he took the child's hand again。
They had emerged from the shadow of the woods； and come in sight of her
father's house。 Claxon was standing coatless before the door in full
enjoyment of the late afternoon air； his wife beside him； at sight of
Gregory； quelled a natural impulse to run round the corner of the house
from the presence of strangers。
〃I wonda what they'a sayin'；〃 she fretted。
〃It looks some as if she was sayin' yes；〃 said Claxon； with an impersonal
enjoyment of his conjecture。 〃I guess she saw he was bound not to take
no for an answa。〃
〃I don't know as I should like it very much；〃 his wife relucted。
〃Clem's doin' very well； as it is。 She no need to marry again。〃
〃Oh； I guess it a'n't that altogetha。 He's a good man。〃 Claxon mused a
moment upon the figures which had begun to advance again； with the little
one between them； and then gave way in a burst of paternal pride； 〃And I
don't know as I should blame him so very much for wantin' Clem。 She
always did want to be of moa useBut I guess she likes him too。〃
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