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Theobald most warmly； and assured him that he valued him as among
the most hard…working and devoted of his parochial clergy。
Christina of course was delighted； and gave me to understand that it
was only an instalment of the much higher dignities which were in
store for Theobald when his merits were more widely known。
I did not then foresee how closely my godson's life and mine were in
after years to be bound up together； if I had； I should doubtless
have looked upon him with different eyes and noted much to which I
paid no attention at the time。 As it was； I was glad to get away
from him； for I could do nothing for him； or chose to say that I
could not； and the sight of so much suffering was painful to me。 A
man should not only have his own way as far as possible； but he
should only consort with things that are getting their own way so
far that they are at any rate comfortable。 Unless for short times
under exceptional circumstances； he should not even see things that
have been stunted or starved； much less should he eat meat that has
been vexed by having been over…driven or underfed； or afflicted with
any disease； nor should he touch vegetables that have not been well
grown。 For all these things cross a man； whatever a man comes in
contact with in any way forms a cross with him which will leave him
better or worse； and the better things he is crossed with the more
likely he is to live long and happily。 All things must be crossed a
little or they would cease to livebut holy things； such for
example as Giovanni Bellini's saints； have been crossed with nothing
but what is good of its kind；
CHAPTER XXIV
The storm which I have described in the previous chapter was a
sample of those that occurred daily for many years。 No matter how
clear the sky； it was always liable to cloud over now in one quarter
now in another； and the thunder and lightning were upon the young
people before they knew where they were。
〃And then； you know；〃 said Ernest to me； when I asked him not long
since to give me more of his childish reminiscences for the benefit
of my story； 〃we used to learn Mrs Barbauld's hymns； they were in
prose； and there was one about the lion which began； 'Come； and I
will show you what is strong。 The lion is strong； when he raiseth
himself from his lair； when he shaketh his mane； when the voice of
his roaring is heard the cattle of the field fly； and the beasts of
the desert hide themselves； for he is very terrible。' I used to say
this to Joey and Charlotte about my father himself when I got a
little older； but they were always didactic； and said it was naughty
of me。
〃One great reason why clergymen's households are generally unhappy
is because the clergyman is so much at home or close about the
house。 The doctor is out visiting patients half his time： the
lawyer and the merchant have offices away from home； but the
clergyman has no official place of business which shall ensure his
being away from home for many hours together at stated times。 Our
great days were when my father went for a day's shopping to
Gildenham。 We were some miles from this place； and commissions used
to accumulate on my father's list till he would make a day of it and
go and do the lot。 As soon as his back was turned the air felt
lighter； as soon as the hall door opened to let him in again； the
law with its all…reaching 'touch not； taste not； handle not' was
upon us again。 The worst of it was that I could never trust Joey
and Charlotte； they would go a good way with me and then turn back；
or even the whole way and then their consciences would compel them
to tell papa and mamma。 They liked running with the hare up to a
certain point； but their instinct was towards the hounds。
〃It seems to me；〃 he continued； 〃that the family is a survival of
the principle which is more logically embodied in the compound
animaland the compound animal is a form of life which has been
found incompatible with high development。 I would do with the
family among mankind what nature has done with the compound animal；
and confine it to the lower and less progressive races。 Certainly
there is no inherent love for the family system on the part of
nature herself。 Poll the forms of life and you will find it in a
ridiculously small minority。 The fishes know it not； and they get
along quite nicely。 The ants and the bees； who far outnumber man；
sting their fathers to death as a matter of course； and are given to
the atrocious mutilation of nine…tenths of the offspring committed
to their charge； yet where shall we find communities more
universally respected？ Take the cuckoo againis there any bird
which we like better？〃
I saw he was running off from his own reminiscences and tried to
bring him back to them； but it was no use。
〃What a fool；〃 he said； 〃a man is to remember anything that happened
more than a week ago unless it was pleasant； or unless he wants to
make some use of it。
〃Sensible people get the greater part of their own dying done during
their own lifetime。 A man at five and thirty should no more regret
not having had a happier childhood than he should regret not having
been born a prince of the blood。 He might be happier if he had been
more fortunate in childhood； but； for aught he knows； if he had；
something else might have happened which might have killed him long
ago。 If I had to be born again I would be born at Battersby of the
same father and mother as before； and I would not alter anything
that has ever happened to me。〃
The most amusing incident that I can remember about his childhood
was that when he was about seven years old he told me he was going
to have a natural child。 I asked him his reasons for thinking this；
and he explained that papa and mamma had always told him that nobody
had children till they were married； and as long as he had believed
this of course he had had no idea of having a child； till he was
grown up； but not long since he had been reading Mrs Markham's
history of England and had come upon the words 〃John of Gaunt had
several natural children〃 he had therefore asked his governess what
a natural child waswere not all children natural？
〃Oh； my dear；〃 said she； 〃a natural child is a child a person has
before he is married。〃 On this it seemed to follow logically that
if John of Gaunt had had children before he was married； he； Ernest
Pontifex； might have them also； and he would be obliged to me if I
would tell him what he had better do under the circumstances。
I enquired how long ago he had made this discovery。 He said about a
fortnight； and he did not know where to look for the child； for it
might come at any moment。 〃You know；〃 he said； 〃babies come so
suddenly； one goes to bed one night and next morning there is a
baby。 Why； it might die of cold if we are not on the look…out for
it。 I hope it will be a boy。〃
〃And you have told your governess about this？〃
〃Yes； but she puts me off and does not help me： she says it will
not come for many years； and she hopes not then。〃
〃Are you quite sure that you have not made any mistake in all this？〃
〃Oh； no； because Mrs Burne； you know； called her