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creates time； there is no rest； but a living sacred change； a
journeying towards rest。 He alone rests； and he alone； in virtue of
his rest； creates change。
He thought with sadness； how all the haunts of his childhood would
pass to others； who would feel no love or reverence for them； that
the house would be the same； but sounding with new steps； and
ringing with new laughter。 A little further thought； however； soon
satisfied him that places die as well as their dwellers； that； by
slow degrees； their forms are wiped out； that the new tastes
obliterate the old fashions； and that ere long the very shape of the
house and farm would be lapped； as it were； about the tomb of him
who had been the soul of the shape； and would vanish from the face
of the earth。
All the old things at home looked sad。 The look came from this；
that； though he could sympathize with them and their story； they
could not sympathize with him； and he suffused them with his own
sadness。 He could find no refuge in the past； he must go on into
the future。
His mother lingered for some time without any evident change。 He
sat by her bedside the most of the day。 All she wanted was to have
him within reach of her feeble voice； that she might； when she
pleased； draw him within touch of her feeble hand。 Once she said：
〃My boy； I am going to your father。〃
〃Yes； mother； I think you are；〃 Hugh replied。 〃How glad he will be
to see you！〃
〃But I shall leave you alone。〃
〃Mother； I love God。〃
The mother looked at him； as only a mother can look； smiled sweetly；
closed her eyes as with the weight of her contentment； fell asleep
holding his hand； and slept for hours。
Meanwhile； in London； Margaret was watching Euphra。 She was dying；
and Margaret was the angel of life watching over her。
〃I shall get rid of my lameness there； Margaret； shall I not？〃 said
Euphra； one day； half playfully。
〃Yes； dear。〃
〃It will be delightful to walk again without pain。〃
〃Perhaps you will not get rid of it all at once； though。〃
〃Why do you think so？〃 asked Euphra； with some appearance of
uneasiness。
〃Because； if it is taken from you before you are quite willing to
have it as long as God pleases； by and by you will not be able to
rest； till you have asked for it back again； that you may bear it
for his sake。〃
〃I am willing； Margaret； I am willing。 Only one can't like it； you
know。〃
〃I know that；〃 answered Margaret。
She spoke no more； and Margaret heard her weeping gently。 Half an
hour had passed away； when she looked up； and said：
〃Margaret； dear； I begin to like my lameness； I think。〃
〃Why； dear？〃
〃Why； just because God made it； and bade me bear it。 May I not
think it is a mark on me from his hand？〃
〃Yes； I think so。〃
〃Why do you think it came on me？〃
〃To walk back to Him with； dear。〃
〃Yes； yes； I see it all。〃
Until now； Margaret had not known to what a degree the lameness of
Euphra had troubled her。 That her pretty ancle should be deformed；
and her light foot able only to limp； had been a source of real
distress to her； even in the midst of far deeper。
The days passed on； and every day she grew weaker。 She did not
suffer much； but nothing seemed to do her good。 Mrs。 Elton was
kindness itself。 Harry was in dreadful distress。 He haunted her
room； creeping in whenever he had a chance； and sitting in corners
out of the way。 Euphra liked to have him near her。 She seldom
spoke to him； or to any one but Margaret； for Margaret alone could
hear with ease what she said。 But now and then she would motion him
to her bedside； and sayit was always the same
〃Harry； dear； be good。〃
〃I will； indeed I will； dear Euphra；〃 was still Harry's reply。
Once； expressing to Margaret her regret that she should be such a
trouble to her； she said：
〃You have to do so much for me； that I am ashamed。〃
〃Do let me wash the feet of one of his disciples；〃 Margaret replied；
gently expostulating； after which； Euphra never grumbled at her own
demands upon her。
Again； one day； she said：
〃I am not right at all to…day； Margaret。 God can't love me； I am so
hateful。〃
〃Don't measure God's mind by your own； Euphra。 It would be a poor
love that depended not on itself； but on the feelings of the person
loved。 A crying baby turns away from its mother's breast； but she
does not put it away till it stops crying。 She holds it closer。
For my part； in the worst mood I am ever in； when I don't feel I
love God at all； I just look up to his love。 I say to him： 'Look at
me。 See what state I am in。 Help me！〃 Ah！ you would wonder how
that makes peace。 And the love comes of itself； sometimes so
strong； it nearly breaks my heart。〃
〃But there is a text I don't like。〃
〃Take another； then。〃
〃But it will keep coming。〃
〃Give it back to God； and never mind it。〃
〃But would that be right？〃
〃One day； when I was a little girl； so high； I couldn't eat my
porridge； and sat looking at it。 'Eat your porridge；' said my
mother。 'I don't want it；' I answered。 'There's nothing else for
you；' said my motherfor she had not learned so much from my father
then； as she did before he died。 'Hoots！' said my fatherI cannot；
dear Euphra； make his words into English。〃
〃No； no； don't；〃 said Euphra； 〃I shall understand them perfectly。〃
〃'Hoots！ Janet； my woman！' said my father。 'Gie the bairn a dish o'
tay。 Wadna ye like some tay； Maggy； my doo？' 'Ay wad I；' said I。
'The parritch is guid eneuch；〃 said my mother。 'Nae doot aboot the
parritch； woman； it's the bairn's stamack； it's no the parritch。'
My mother said no more； but made me a cup of such nice tea； for
whenever she gave in； she gave in quite。 I drank it； and； half from
anxiety to please my mother； half from reviving hunger； attacked the
porridge next； and ate it up。 'Leuk at that！' said my father。
'Janet； my woman； gie a body the guid that they can tak'； an'
they'll sune tak' the guid that they canna。 Ye're better noo；
Maggy； my doo？' I never told him that I had taken the porridge too
soon after all； and had to creep into the wood； and be sick。 But it
is all the same for the story。〃
Euphra laughed a feeble but delighted laugh； and applied the story
for herself。
So the winter days passed on。
〃I wish I could live till the spring；〃 said Euphra。 〃I should like
to see a snowdrop and a primrose again。〃
〃Perhaps you will； dear； but you are going into a better spring。 I
could almost envy you； Euphra。〃
〃But shall we have spring there？〃
〃I think so。〃
〃And spring…flowers？〃
〃I think we shallbetter than here。〃
〃But they will not mean so much。〃
〃Then they won't be so good。 But I should think they would mean
ever so much more； and be ever so much more spring…like。 They will
be the spring…flowers to all winters in one； I think。〃
Folded in the love of this woman； anointed for her death by her
wisdom； baptized for the new life by her sympathy and its tears；
Euphra died in the arms of Margaret。
Margaret wept； fell on her knees； and gave God thanks。 Mrs。 Elton
was so distressed； that； as soon as the funeral was over； she broke
up her London household； sending some of the servants home t