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ere thick about the doors； and as he passed among them he said； addressing no one in particular： 〃A revolt of the Helots。〃 A barb raised a threatening fist； Pierson sneered； and the fist unclenched and dropped before his fearless eyes。
An hour later Scarborough； his ticket elected and the society adjourned； reached Mrs。 Trent's porch。 In its darkness he saw the glowing end of a cigarette。 〃That you； Pierson？〃 he asked in the tone of one who knows what the answer will be。
〃Sit down for a few minutes；〃 came the reply； in a strained voice。
He could not see even the outline of Pierson's face； but with those acute sensibilities which made life alternately a keen pleasure and a pain to him； he felt that his friend was struggling for self…control。 He waited in silence。
At last Pierson began： 〃I owe you an apology。 I've been thinking all sorts of things about you。 I know they're unjust andmean； which is worse。 But； damn it； Scarborough； I HATE being beaten。 And it doesn't make defeat any the easier because YOU did it。〃
He paused； but Scarborough did not speak。
〃I'm going to be frank；〃 Pierson went on with an effort。 〃I know you had a perfect right to do as you pleased； buthang it all； old manyou might have warned me。〃
〃But I didn't do as I pleased；〃 said Scarborough。 〃And as for telling you〃 He paused before he interrupted himself with： 〃But first I want to say that I don't like to give an account of myself to my friends。 What does friendship mean if it forbids freedom？ I didn't approve or condemn you because you belonged to a fraternity； and because you headed a clique that was destroying the Literary Society by making it a place for petty fraternity politics instead of a place to develop speakers； writers and debaters。 Yet now you're bringing me to account because I didn't slavishly accept your ideas as my own。 Do you think that's a sound basis for a friendship； Pierson？〃
When Scarborough began Pierson was full of a grievance which he thought real and deep。 He was proposing to forgive Scarborough； forgive him generously； but not without making him realize that it was an act of generosity。 As Scarborough talked he was first irritated； then； and suddenly； convinced that he was himself in the wrongin the wrong throughout。
〃Don't say another word； Scarborough；〃 he replied； impulsively laying his hand on the arm of his friendhow powerful it felt through the sleeve！ 〃I've been spoiled by always having my own way and by people letting me rule them。 You gave me my first lesson in defeat。 AndI needed it badly。 As for your not telling me； you'd have ruined your scheme if you had。 Besides； looking back； I see that you did warn me。 I know now what you meant by always jumping on the fraternities and the combinations。〃
〃Thank you；〃 said Scarborough； simply。 〃When I saw you leaving the society hall I feared I'd lost a friend。 Instead； I've found what a friend I have。〃 Then after a brief silence he continued： 〃This little incident up there to…nightthis little revolution I took part inhas meant a good deal to me。 It was the first chance I'd had to carry out the ideas I've thought over and thought over down there on the farm while I was working in the fields or lying in the hay； staring up at the sky。 And I don't suppose in all the future I'll ever have a greater temptation to be false to myself than I had in the dread that's been haunting methe dread of losing your friendshipand the friendship ofofsome others who might see it as I was afraid you would。 There may be lessons in this incident for you； Fred。 But the greatest lesson of all is the one you've taught meNEVER to be afraid to go forward when the Finger points。〃
Pierson and Olivia walked to chapel together the next morning； and he told her the story of the defeat； putting himself in a worse light than he deserved。 But Olivia； who never lost a chance to attack him for his shortcomings； now； to his amazement； burst out against Scarborough。
〃It was contemptible；〃 she said hotly。 〃It was treachery！ It was a piece of cold…blooded ambition。 He'd sacrifice anything； any one； to ambition。 I shall never like him again。〃
Pierson was puzzledbeing in love with her； he had been deceived by her pretense that she had a poor opinion of him； and he did not appreciate that her sense of justice was now clouded by resentment for his sake。 At dinner； when the four were together； she attacked Scarborough。 Though she did not confess it； he forced her to see that at least his motives were not those she had been attributing to him。 When he and Pauline were aloneOlivia and Pierson had to hurry away to a lecture he said： 〃What do YOU think； Miss Gardiner？ Youdid youdo youagree with your cousin？
〃I？〃 Pauline dropped her eyes。 〃Oh； I〃
She hesitated so long that he said： 〃Go ontell me just what you think。 I'd rather know than suspect。〃
〃I think you did right。 ButI don't see how you had the courage to do it。〃
〃That is； you think I did rightbut the sort of right that's worse than wrong。〃
〃Nono！〃 she protested； putting a good deal of feeling into her voice in the effort to reassure him。 〃I'd have been ashamed of you if you hadn't done it。 Andoh； I despise weakness in a man most of all！ And I like to think that if everybody in college had denounced you； you'd have gone straight on。 Andyou WOULD！〃
Within a week after this they were calling each the other by their first names。
For the Christmas holidays she went with her mother from Battle Field direct to Chicago； to her father's sisters Mrs。 HaydenColonel Gardiner had been called south on business。 When she came back she and Scarborough took up their friendship where they had left it。 They read the same books； had similar tastes； disagreed sympathetically； agreed with enthusiasm。 She saw a great deal of several other men in her class； enough not to make her preference for him significant to the collegeor to herself。 They went for moonlight straw…rides； on moonlight and starlight skating and ice…boat parties； for long walks over the hillsall invariably with others； but they were often practically alone。 He rapidly dropped his rural manners and mannerismsFred Pierson's tailor in Indianapolis made the most radical of the surface changes in him。
Late in February his cousin； the superintendent of the farm； telegraphed him to come home。 He found his mother illplainly dying。 And his fatherBladen Scarborough's boast had been that he never took a 〃dose of drugs〃 in his life； and for at least seventy of his seventy…nine years he had been 〃on the jump〃 daily from long before dawn until long after sundown。 Now he was content to sit in his arm…chair and； with no more vigorous protest than a frown and a growl； to swallow the despised drugs。
Each day he made them carry him in his great chair into HER bedroom。 And there he sat all day long； his shaggy brows down； his gaze rarely wandering from the little ridge her small body made in the high white bed； and in his stern eyes there was a look of stoic anguish。 Each night； as they were carrying him to his own room； they took him near the bed； and he leaned forward； and the voice that in all their years had never been anythi