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nary colony。 But what was to be done？ I was willing to abide by these conditions。 My understanding might not approve of all the ends proposed by this fraternity； and I had liberty to withdraw from it； or to refuse to ally myself with them。 That the obligation of secrecy should still remain； was unquestionably reasonable。
It appeared to be the plan of Ludloe rather to damp than to stimulate my zeal。 He discouraged all attempts to renew the subject in conversation。 He dwelt upon the arduousness of the office to which I aspired； the temptations to violate my duty with which I should be continually beset； the inevitable death with which the slightest breach of my engagements would be followed； and the long apprenticeship which it would be necessary for me to serve； before I should be fitted to enter into this conclave。
Sometimes my courage was depressed by these representations。 。 。 。 。 。 My zeal； however； was sure to revive； and at length Ludloe declared himself willing to assist me in the accomplishment of my wishes。 For this end； it was necessary； he said； that I should be informed of a second obligation； which every candidate must assume。 Before any one could be deemed qualified； he must be thoroughly known to his associates。 For this end； he must determine to disclose every fact in his history； and every secret of his heart。 I must begin with making these confessions with regard to my past life； to Ludloe； and must continue to communicate； at stated seasons； every new thought； and every new occurrence； to him。 This confidence was to be absolutely limitless： no exceptions were to be admitted； and no reserves to be practised； and the same penalty attended the infraction of this rule as of the former。 Means would be employed； by which the slightest deviation； in either case； would be detected； and the deathful consequence would follow with instant and inevitable expedition。 If secrecy were difficult to practise； sincerity； in that degree in which it was here demanded； was a task infinitely more arduous； and a period of new deliberation was necessary before I should decide。 I was at liberty to pause： nay； the longer was the period of deliberation which I took； the better； but； when I had once entered this path； it was not in my power to recede。 After having solemnly avowed my resolution to be thus sincere in my confession； any particle of reserve or duplicity would cost me my life。
This indeed was a subject to be deeply thought upon。 Hitherto I had been guilty of concealment with regard to my friend。 I had entered into no formal compact； but had been conscious to a kind of tacit obligation to hide no important transaction of my life from him。 This consciousness was the source of continual anxiety。 I had exerted； on numerous occasions； my bivocal faculty； but； in my intercourse with Ludloe； had suffered not the slightest intimation to escape me with regard to it。 This reserve was not easily explained。 It was； in a great degree； the product of habit； but I likewise considered that the efficacy of this instrument depended upon its existence being unknown。 To confide the secret to one； was to put an end to my privilege： how widely the knowledge would thenceforth be diffused； I had no power to foresee。
Each day multiplied the impediments to confidence。 Shame hindered me from acknowledging my past reserves。 Ludloe； from the nature of our intercourse； would certainly account my reserve； in this respect； unjustifiable； and to excite his indignation or contempt was an unpleasing undertaking。 Now； if I should resolve to persist in my new path； this reserve must be dismissed： I must make him master of a secret which was precious to me beyond all others； by acquainting him with past concealments； I must risk incurring his suspicion and his anger。 These reflections were productive of considerable embarrassment。
There was； indeed； an avenue by which to escape these difficulties； if it did not； at the same time； plunge me into greater。 My confessions might； in other respects； be unbounded； but my reserves； in this particular； might be continued。 Yet should I not expose myself to formidable perils？ Would my secret be for ever unsuspected and undiscovered？
When I considered the nature of this faculty； the impossibility of going farther than suspicion； since the agent could be known only by his own confession； and even this confession would not be believed by the greater part of mankind； I was tempted to conceal it。
In most cases； if I had asserted the possession of this power； I should be treated as a liar； it would be considered as an absurd and audacious expedient to free myself from the suspicion of having entered into compact with a daemon； or of being myself an emissary of the grand foe。 Here； however； there was no reason to dread a similar imputation； since Ludloe had denied the preternatural pretensions of these airy sounds。
My conduct on this occasion was nowise influenced by the belief of any inherent sanctity in truth。 Ludloe had taught me to model myself in this respect entirely with a view to immediate consequences。 If my genuine interest； on the whole； was promoted by veracity； it was proper to adhere to it； but； if the result of my investigation were opposite； truth was to be sacrificed without scruple。
*Paraguay。
Chapter VII。
Meanwhile； in a point of so much moment； I was not hasty to determine。 My delay seemed to be； by no means； unacceptable to Ludloe； who applauded my discretion； and warned me to be circumspect。 My attention was chiefly absorbed by considerations connected with this subject； and little regard was paid to any foreign occupation or amusement。
One evening； after a day spent in my closet； I sought recreation by walking forth。 My mind was chiefly occupied by the review of incidents which happened in Spain。 I turned my face towards the fields； and recovered not from my reverie； till I had proceeded some miles on the road to Meath。 The night had considerably advanced； and the darkness was rendered intense； by the setting of the moon。 Being somewhat weary； as well as undetermined in what manner next to proceed； I seated myself on a grassy bank beside the road。 The spot which I had chosen was aloof from passengers； and shrowded in the deepest obscurity。
Some time elapsed； when my attention was excited by the slow approach of an equipage。 I presently discovered a coach and six horses； but unattended； except by coachman and postillion； and with no light to guide them on their way。 Scarcely had they passed the spot where I rested； when some one leaped from beneath the hedge； and seized the head of the fore…horses。 Another called upon the coachman to stop； and threatened him with instant death if he disobeyed。 A third drew open the coach…door； and ordered those within to deliver their purses。 A shriek of terror showed me that a lady was within； who eagerly consented to preserve her life by the loss of her money。
To walk unarmed in the neighbourhood of Dublin； especially at night； has always been accounted dangerous。 I had about me the usual instruments of defence。 I was desirous of rescuing this person from the danger which surrou