the foundations of personality-第93章

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t　place　after　place　at　work；　was　sent　to　a　hospital　to　become　a　nurse　and　demoralized　her　associates　by　her　lies　and　her　thefts。　She　was　a　very　sweet　girl　in　every　other　way；　kindly；　generous；　self…sacrificing；　studious　even；　and　her　character…contradiction　made　people　reluctant　to　believe　she　was　not　insane。　She　was　discharged　from　the　hospital；　stayed　at　home　for　a　few　months；and　then　came　the　miracle。　She　obtained　a　place　in　a　large　business　house　and　worked　there　for　seven　years　or　up　till　the　time　of　her　marriage。　She　was　steadily　promoted　and　was　accounted　the　most　reliable　and　honest　employee　of　the　establishment。　She　handled　money　and　goods；　was　absolutely　truthful　and　her　earnest　efficiency　was　noteworthy。　Her　private　life　was　in　complete　harmony　with　this　business　career。　She　helped　her　parents；　who　are　poor；　dressed　modestly；　studied　nights　and　yet　showed　the　same　fondness　for　dancing　and　good　times　that　the　normal　girl　does。　She　met　a　promising　young　business　man　who　fell　immediately　in　love　with　this　demure　looking　young　woman；　and　they　were　later　married。　Once　I　asked　her　how　the　reform　came　about。　〃I　don't　know　myself；〃　she　answered　frankly。　〃I　never　was　happywhen　I　was　the　other　way。　I　always　vowed　reform；　but　when　there　was　money　around　I'd　think　and　think　about　it　until　it　was　mine。　Then　I'd　spend　it　in　a　silly　way　to　get　rid　of　it　fast。　I　craved　good　things；　and　you　know　how　poor　we　were。　Then　I　lied　just　to　have　people　like　me　and　pity　me；　even　though　I　called　myself　a　fool　while　doing　it。　Often；　often　I　tried　to　reform　and　for　a　week　or　two　would　be　real　good。　Then　perhaps　I'd　see　some　money；　and　I'd　try　to　think　of　something　else。　But　that　money　would　come　to　my　mind；　and　I'd　get　hot　and　dizzy　thinking　about　it。　Perhaps　I'd　say；　'I'll　just　look　at　it；'　and　finally　I'd　go　and　take　itand　feel　so　relieved　and　spend　it。　After　I　left　the　hospital　it　seemed　to　me　that　I　could　never　smile　again。　I　cried　all　night　long；　I　wanted　to　die。　I　could　see　one　girl　who　thought　I　was　so　good　and　nice；　and　her　face　as　she　looked　at　me　when　I　left！　Her　eyes　were　wide　open；　and　her　mouth　was　so　stern；　and　she　looked　as　if　she　wanted　to　speak　but　she　turned　around　and　walked　away。　One　day　I　woke　up　after　a　restless　night　at　home；　and　it　seemed　to　me　that　I　had　strength；　that　something　had　turned　around　in　my　nature；　and　since　that　day　I　have　never　even　wanted　to　steal。　I　haven't　had　to　try　to　be　good；　it　came　as　natural　as　eating　and　sleeping。〃　The　sexually　under…inhibited　are　those　whose　sex　control　is　deficient。　This　may　be　either　from　over…passionate　nature；　bad　example；　deficient　mentality；　vanity　and　desire　for　good　times；　as　in　certain　girls；　etc。　To　discuss　these　types　would　be　to　write　another　book；　and　so　I　forbear。　But　this　I　wish　to　emphasize：　that　neither　age；　sex　protestation　of　indifference　and　control；　occupation　or　social　status；　alters　the　fact　that　the　history　of　the　sex　feelings；　impulses　and　struggles　is　essential　to　a　knowledge　of　character。　Without　detailing　sex　types；　these　are　some　that　are　important。　1。　The　uninhibited　impulsive；　passionate　（the　bulk　of　the　prostitutes）。　2。　The　controlled；　passionate。　Very　common。　3。　The　frigid。　Not　so　rare　as　believed。　4。　The　extremely　passionate　（nymphomania；　satyriasis）。　Rare。　Always　in　trouble。　5。　The　sensualist；　a　deliberate　seeker　of　sex　pleasure；　often　indulging　in　perversion。　Common　type。　6。　The　perverted　types；autoerotic　（masturbator）；　homosexual；　masochists；　sadists；　fetishist；　etc。　More　common　than　the　ordinary　person　dreams。　7。　The　periodic；　to　whom　sex　life　is　incidental　to　certain　periods　and　situations。　Common　among　women；　less　common　among　men。　8。　The　sublimators；　whose　sexual　activity　has　somehow　been　harnessed　to　other　great　activities。　Fairly　frequent　among　these　who　either　through　choice　or　necessity　are　to　remain　continent。　9。　The　anhedonic　or　exhausted。　Found　in　the　sensualists　and　often　reacted　to　by　the　formation　of　religious　and　ethical　codes；　which　eliminate　sex；Tolstoy；　the　hermits；　certain　Russian　sects；　etc。　There　is　under…inhibition　of　a　good　kind。　There　are　generous…hearted　people　always　ready　to　give　of　themselves　to　anything　or　anybody　that　needs　help。　Often　〃fooled〃　by　the　unworthy；　they　resolve　to　be　calm；　judicial　and　selfish；　and　then；their　generous　social　natures　over…ride　caution；　and　again　they　plunge　into　kindness　and　philanthropy。　F。　L。　is　one　of　these。　As　child；　boy　and　young　man　he　was　free…hearted　to　an　extraordinary　degree。　Ragamuffin；　stray　dog　or　cat；　tramp；　down　and　outer　of　every　kind　or　description；　these　enlisted　his　sympathy　and　help　despite　the　expostulation　and　remonstrance　of　a　series　of　conventional　good　people；　his　mother　and　father；　his　best　friends　and　his　outraged　wife。　The　latter　never　knew；　she　used　to　say；　what　he　would　bring　home　for　dinner。　〃He　always　forgot　to　bring　home　the　steak；　but　he　never　forgot　to　lug　along　some　derelict。〃　More　than　once　he　was　robbed；　often　he　was　imposed　upon。　Once　he　met　an　interesting　vagabond　who　spoke　several　languages；　quoted　the　Bible　with　ease　and　accuracy；　and　so　fired　the　heart　of　our　simple　man　that　he　bought　him　clothes　and　brought　him　home　to　stay。　His　wife　threw　up　her　hands　in　despair。　〃But；　my　dear；〃　said　F。　L。；　〃he's　a　scholar　who　has　fallen　on　evil　days。〃　〃Ah；〃　she　answered；　〃I　fear　it　will　be　an　evil　day　for　us　when　you　took　him　home。〃　She　had　a　good　chance　to　say；　〃I　told　you　so；〃　when　the　rogue　eloped　with　the　best　of　their　silver。　Not　only　is　F。　L。　impulsive　and　uninhibited　in　his　generosity；　but　his　〃pitch　in　and　help〃　quality　is　about　as　well　manifested　in　other　matters。　If　he　sees　a　man　or　boy　struggling　with　a　load；　he　immediately　forgets　that　he　is　over　fifty　and　well　dressed　and　steps　right　in　to　help。　He　saw　an　ash　and　garbage　manthis　is　his　wife's　star　storystruggling　to　lift　a　much　befouled　can　into　his　wagon。　F。　L。　left　his　wife　and　some　friends　without　a　word　and　with　a　cheery　word　threw　the　can　into　the　wagon。　Unfortunately　some　of　the　contents　splashed；　and　F。　L。　suffered　both　in　dignity　and　appearance　as　a　consequence。　He　had　to　go　home　by　back　alleys　and　had　to　endure　the　mirth　of　his　friends　for　a　long　time。　But　it　did　not　change　his　reactions　in　the　least；　although　he　was　really　vexed　with　himself　and　endeavored　to　be　conventional　and　self…controlled　for　a　while。　The　point　is　that　F。　L。　attempts　inhibition　of　generous　impulses　and　fails　as　ignominiously　as　a　drunkard　struggling　with　the　desire　to　drink。　Of　course　he　is　of　the　salt　of　the　earth。　Upon　such　uninhibited　fellowship　feeling　as　his　rests　the　ethical　progress　of　the　world。　A　dozen　inventors　contribute　less　to　their　fellow　men　than　does　he。　For　their　contributions　may　be　used　to　destroy　or　enslave　their　fellows；　and　it　is　a　commonplace　that　science　has　outstripped　morals。　But　his　contributions　spread　kindly　feeling　and　the　notion　of　the　brotherhood　of　man。　The　over…inhibited；　those　whose　every　impulse　and　desire　is　subjected　to　a　scrutiny　and　a　blocking；　often　come　to　the　attention　of　the　neuropsychiatrist。　But　there　are　many　〃normal〃　people　who　fall　into　this　group；　and　whose　conduct　throughout　life　is　marked　by　a　scrupulosity　that　is　painful　to　behold。　The　over…inhibition　may　take　sp