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The Diary of an Old Soul
The Diary of an Old Soul
by George MacDonald
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The Diary of an Old Soul
DEDICATION
Sweet friends； receive my offering。 You will find Against each worded
page a white page set： This is the mirror of each friendly mind
Reflecting that。 In this book we are met。 Make it； dear hearts； of worth to
you indeed： Let your white page be ground； my print be seed； Growing
to golden ears； that faith and hope shall feed。
YOUR OLD SOUL
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JANUARY。
1。
LORD； what I once had done with youthful might； Had I been from
the first true to the truth； Grant me； now old； to dowith better sight； And
humbler heart； if not the brain of youth； So wilt thou； in thy gentleness and
ruth； Lead back thy old soul； by the path of pain； Round to his bestyoung
eyes and heart and brain。
2。
A dim aurora rises in my east； Beyond the line of jagged questions
hoar； As if the head of our intombed High Priest Began to glow behind the
unopened door： Sure the gold wings will soon rise from the gray！ They
rise not。 Up I rise； press on the more； To meet the slow coming of the
Master's day。
3。
Sometimes I wake； and； lo！ I have forgot； And drifted out upon an
ebbing sea！ My soul that was at rest now resteth not； For I am with myself
and not with thee； Truth seems a blind moon in a glaring morn； Where
nothing is but sick…heart vanity： Oh； thou who knowest！ save thy child
forlorn。
4。
Death； like high faith； levelling； lifteth all。 When I awake； my daughter
and my son； Grown sister and brother； in my arms shall fall； Tenfold my
girl and boy。 Sure every one Of all the brood to the old wings will run。
Whole…hearted is my worship of the man 》From whom my earthly history
began。
5。
Thy fishes breathe but where thy waters roll； Thy birds fly but within
thy airy sea； My soul breathes only in thy infinite soul； I breathe； I think； I
love； I live but thee。 Oh breathe； oh think；O Love； live into me；
Unworthy is my life till all divine； Till thou see in me only what is thine。
6。
Then shall I breathe in sweetest sharing； then Think in harmonious
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consort with my kin； Then shall I love well all my father's men； Feel one
with theirs the life my heart within。 Oh brothers！ sisters holy！ hearts divine！
Then I shall be all yours； and nothing mine To every human heart a
mother…twin。
7。
I see a child before an empty house； Knocking and knocking at the
closed door； He wakes dull echoesbut nor man nor mouse； If he stood
knocking there for evermore。 A mother angel； see！ folding each wing；
Soft…walking； crosses straight the empty floor； And opens to the obstinate
praying thing。
8。
Were there but some deep； holy spell； whereby Always I should
remember theesome mode Of feeling the pure heat…throb momently Of
the spirit…fire still uttering this I！ Lord； see thou to it； take thou
remembrance' load： Only when I bethink me can I cry； Remember thou；
and prick me with love's goad。
9。
If to myself〃God sometimes interferes〃 I said； my faith at once
would be struck blind。 I see him all in all； the lifing mind； Or nowhere in
the vacant miles and years。 A love he is that watches and that hears； Or but
a mist fumed up from minds of men； Whose fear and hope reach out
beyond their ken。
10。
When I no more can stir my soul to move； And life is but the ashes of
a fire； When I can but remember that my heart Once used to live and love；
long and aspire； Oh； be thou then the first； the one thou art； Be thou the
calling； before all answering love； And in me wake hope； fear； boundless
desire。
11。
I thought that I had lost thee； but； behold！ Thou comest to me from the
horizon low； Across the fields outspread of green and gold Fair carpet for
thy feet to come and go。 Whence I know not； or how to me thou art come！…
… Not less my spirit with calm bliss doth glow； Meeting thee only thus； in
nature vague and dumb。
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12。
Doubt swells and surges； with swelling doubt behind！ My soul in
storm is but a tattered sail； Streaming its ribbons on the torrent gale； In
calm； 'tis but a limp and flapping thing： Oh！ swell it with thy breath； make
it a wing； To sweep through thee the ocean； with thee the wind Nor rest
until in thee its haven it shall find。
13。
The idle flapping of the sail is doubt； Faith swells it full to breast the
breasting seas。 Bold； conscience； fast； and rule the ruling helm； Hell's
freezing north no tempest can send out； But it shall toss thee homeward to
thy leas； Boisterous wave…crest never shall o'erwhelm Thy sea…float bark
as safe as field…borne rooted elm。
14。
Sometimes； hard…trying； it seems I cannot pray For doubt； and pain；
and anger； and all strife。 Yet some poor half…fledged prayer…bird from the
nest May fall； flit； fly； perchcrouch in the bowery breast Of the large；
nation…healing tree of life； Moveless there sit through all the burning day；
And on my heart at night a fresh leaf cooling lay。
15。
My harvest withers。 Health； my means to live All things seem
rushing straight into the dark。 But the dark still is God。 I would not give
The smallest silver…piece to turn the rush Backward or sideways。 Am I not
a spark Of him who is the light？Fair hope doth flush My east。Divine
successOh； hush and hark！
16。
Thy will be done。 I yield up everything。 〃The life is more than meat〃
then more than health； 〃The body more than raiment〃then than wealth；
The hairs I made not； thou art numbering。 Thou art my lifeI the brook；
thou the spring。 Because thine eyes are open； I can see； Because thou art
thyself； 'tis therefore I am me。
17。
No sickness can come near to blast my health； My life depends not
upon any me